Welp...if you are feeling triggered...I'm in the same boat as you. COMMENCE shadow work...smh, lol.
This is very raw for me so I'll be holding this L and processing it. Divine Masculine's if you've done this or are doing it, all I can say is, remember there is someone's heart at the end of what you're doing. Divine Feminine's: Sheep get ate, protect yourself, don't get ate.